When thoughts run rampant.

            I think too much. This is what I am beginning to learn about myself. I spend a good part of my days and weeks thinking about many different things. Even in times of silence and solitude, my mind wanders all over. Although my thoughts cover a variety of topics, I find myself dwelling a lot on the uncertainty of the future. What’s my next step? Where are you in the midst of all this? So many times I acknowledge that God has a plan for me. He knows where my next step is., but I find myself wanting more and more to be on the inside of the plan. I want to know where to go next.  “God, I know you have an awesome plan for my life, but please, let me know what that is!”

            When life gets hard, and struggles come along, are the times I find myself the most in the dark when it comes to God’s plan. When life is good, and he problems are minimal it is easy for me to trust and be confident in God’s plan because everything is going well. When the bumps come along, that’s when I begin to wonder what God is doing. Don’t get me wrong, I know that he is working for my good, but it is definitely more on the forefront of my mind in the hard times.

            Through all my worry, anxiety, and thinking I get myself lost in a labyrinth of ‘what if’s’ and mixed emotions. Then God always reminds me of what is written in Romans 8:28, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” All I need to do is to keep on loving God, and He will work things together for my good. I can rest in this truth, and have confidence that my God is working up, or has worked up something amazing for my life. It is hard, and a struggle for me to not know what that means, but you know, it’s just more opportunity for me to trust in God!

Psalm 46

“God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble.

Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. There is a river whose sreams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells.”